Its true when people say you need to learn to love yourself, because you are the only constant thing you'll have through out your life. My time in Nepal taught me alot of things and I appreciate every lesson an experience. However, it forced one lesson upon me. At home, its hard to learn to love yourself as you are. You are constantly compared either by yourself or others. Despite the fact you are the best version of yourself, there always seems to be someone who appears to live your life better. You are surrounded by similar people.
Nepal thrusted upon me the notion of washing once a week, not wearing makeup, spending 60 seconds flat on my hair daily, not washing my hair for 7 days, hairy legs, baggy eyes, epic regrowth and wearing trackies and thermals out to dinner. None of that was terribly acceptable prior to me leaving Aus. I'm not sure when it kicked in, but sometime around the 5-6 week mark it became liberating to have marriage proposals and general attention despite the fact I thought I looked disgusting. It definitely kicked in when I cam home 48 hours ago. Mainly because I wasn't in a hurry to change how I looked. I'll admit to hastily getting out of the trackies and thermals I'd been wearing for 3 days because I looked 100% homeless in them. But, I still went out to the shops that first afternoon with dirty hair, unshowered, no make up on, my usual grossness. It felt freaking liberating. Sometimes thats all you need- to feel liberated. Thankyou Nepal.
I'm happy to say though that I now shower daily, despite it feeling like an absolute chore and my solid list of excuses holding me back such as "It takes too long", " I just dont have time", "Its too much effort". I clearly haven't fully rehabilitated yet, but know that I am doing well.
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