At this point, I can do nothing but laugh, and crap my pants. I leave in 14 days. When did that happen!?
I'm spending my time doing all the important things, like buying undies, writing instructions for my Ma on how to use my iPhone, teaching my hair how to last more than a few days without being lathered up and trying to decide on the best textbook to take that doesn't weight a million kilo's. Sounds easier than it is.
At the 4 week mark I decided that when it was 3 weeks to go I'd be getting jittery. Then 3 weeks came and went and suddenly it was "just over 2". Oh man, and now its 2. The scary thing about all this is that I almost forgot about Christmas. Who forgets Christmas? I'll be honest. The biggest worry thus far is not my safety, being home sick, the fact that I might not enjoy my time in Nepal, or anything like that. It's been money (Yyu know you're an adult when you have dollar concerns!). I have not worked regularly since September. I have relied upon around 20 hours total casual work since then and fundraising. I planned to work full time for the 5 weeks between finishing uni and jet setting. At this point, I can safely say that hasn't and won't happen. The shocking part about all this is that it took someone else to say to me a few days ago that this was a way of stretching my faith in God. WOAH I've never heartily concurred more with anything in my life. You bet this is stretching. And if it isn't stretching, then I don't know what "stretching" is! And why didn't I realise this earlier?
As days go on, I am given the opportunity to increase my faith. I thought my faith was decent in the beginning. When you get to the point of desperado-crying you realise your faith ain't quite what you thought it was. Once again, I'll be honest (I can't fool anyone anyway, I've always sucked at it), with 2 weeks to go, I have 1/3 of the money I planned on leaving with. That's kind of scary. Maybe even really scary. Yep, I'm going with the latter. However, there is one thing that I know, and know more than ever before. I am the daughter of a God that provides and always will provide for my every need. I am reminded of Matt 6 and how God provides for the birds daily, so how much more will he provide for us as His children. Conveniently I have 2 birds inked on my wrist. What a reminder of my blessing and provision!
A big thankyou to everyone who has helped out in some way, shape or form. I sincerely appreciate every last 5 cent coin, help or advice.
Until next time
xx
Update: I ended up lasting 4 weeks without straightening my hair. MIRACLE!
Matt 6:33-34
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
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